A Short Story: Writer’s Block

Published: July 4, 2024
Author: Heidi Uskaure
”Hey there, I'm Heidi! I launched this blog back in January of 2023 and I'm having a blast writing in a laidback style. Although, my ultimate goal is to become a pro writer one day. Thanks for joining me on this journey!”

I don’t know if anyone reads these on your end, but what the heck, I’m a writer, and I thought it might at least make a great story if anything, haha.

The big story—I’m trying to come up with something genuine. Handwritten. I did my online shopping; groceries are coming home tomorrow. My hair is a mess, and I’ve been letting my tits hang free under my t-shirt. I’ve just been home, healing. I was called a narcissist this week by my own father. Yet, my life seems to be in some looming stage, as if I were waiting for the sun to rise or set.

It’s hard, you know, to come up with something original, something brilliant and exciting. Then again, why should it be? If writing isn’t something you do for just the art, why would you do it at all?

My mind wanders as I sit here, clutching my pen, a cheap ballpoint that leaks ink onto my fingers. I imagine the ink seeping through my skin, becoming a part of me. Maybe that’s the way stories get written—through osmosis, the words creeping in until they find a way out.

I glance around my living room, cluttered with books, notebooks, and scraps of paper with half-formed ideas. A gentle breeze blows through the open window, carrying with it the scent of rain and freshly cut grass. It’s almost poetic, the way nature insists on inspiring me when I feel so uninspired.

I can hear my neighbors arguing through the thin walls of my apartment. Their voices blend into a cacophony of frustration and love, a symphony of real life. I wonder about their story, about the lives they lead when they’re not yelling at each other. It’s a reminder that everyone has a story, that every moment is a potential plot point.

Maybe I am a narcissist, as my father claimed. But perhaps, in some twisted way, all writers are. We dissect our lives and the lives of others, constantly searching for meaning, for stories to tell. Is it narcissism or just insatiable curiosity? Maybe it’s both.

My phone buzzes with a notification. It’s a message from an old friend, someone I haven’t spoken to in years. We used to share our dreams and aspirations late into the night, back when we believed we could conquer the world with our words. I smile at the memory and decide to reach out. Maybe reconnecting with the past will help me move forward.

I write a few lines, then cross them out. The page is a mess of scribbles and abandoned thoughts. It’s frustrating, but it’s also part of the process. Writing is about perseverance, about pushing through the doubt and the fear. It’s about capturing the fleeting moments of inspiration and turning them into something tangible.

The sun sets, casting a warm glow over my small apartment. I take a deep breath and pick up my pen again. I don’t know if anyone will ever read this, but that’s not the point. The point is to write, to create, to keep moving forward.

I find myself staring at the blank page, willing the words to come. My thoughts drift back to my childhood, to the nights I spent reading under the covers with a flashlight, lost in worlds far more exciting than my own. I remember the first time I picked up a pen, the thrill of creating something out of nothing. Those memories fuel me, remind me why I started writing in the first place.

The night deepens, and I decide to step out onto my balcony for some fresh air. The city is alive below me, a patchwork of lights and sounds. There’s something comforting about the anonymity of it all, the way each person down there is living their own story, completely unaware of mine.

A woman walks by, her laughter ringing out like a bell. She’s with friends, their arms linked, their joy palpable. I wonder about her life, what she’s celebrating tonight. I make a mental note to jot down a character inspired by her later.

Back inside, I pour myself a glass of wine and sit back at my desk. The liquid courage warms me, loosens my thoughts. I pick up my pen again and start to write, letting the words flow without overthinking. I write about a woman who feels lost but finds solace in the small moments of beauty in her everyday life.

I lose track of time, my pen moving almost of its own accord. The story unfolds in fits and starts, but it’s there, taking shape. I feel a sense of accomplishment, however small, at having created something tangible.

As I write, I think about the message from my old friend. Maybe I should call her tomorrow, catch up over coffee. It’s been too long since I’ve had a real conversation with someone who understands the struggles and joys of writing.

The night wears on, and I finally put my pen down, exhausted but content. I read over what I’ve written, surprised at how the words seem to flow together, how the story seems to have a life of its own.

I climb into bed, my mind still buzzing with ideas. The city outside has quieted, a hush falling over the streets. I close my eyes, letting the rhythm of my breathing lull me to sleep. Tomorrow is another day, another chance to write, to create, to keep moving forward.

In the stillness of the night, I feel a spark of hope. Maybe, just maybe, I’m on the right path. And that thought, fragile and flickering like a candle flame, is enough to carry me into dreams filled with endless possibilities.

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